Thursday, November 19, 2009

swingy

Reasons why I'm so swingy now:

- Examphobia.
- Lack of money since I HAVE to buy many stuff.
- Health worries.
- My fucked up hair.
- Ticket and going to Male'.
- Studies.
- Being alone.
- My laptop display (again money :@)
- My broken phone.
- Sickness.
- College attendance.
- PMS.
- When people worry about me too much.

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

:(

Its not easy for me, I hate it too but I had no other choice. I'd rather have friends who judge me for my personality than appearance. Yeah, I had to cut my hair so short that I look hideous. There I said it.

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

dear paartu

Even though I tried so much and you still kept ignoring me for 39 days (u better make up for that!!!),
And even though I kept ignoring you for the next 42 days (sorry!!),
Even though it’s just been 31 days since we named it (literally ps. Thanks for asking :P),
I know I have been falling into this nest with 73 days ago (:
And I’m glad I talked to you 111 days ago (since u didn’t have the guts to talk to me :P)
And I’m not practicing for my math exam (counting does help though hehe)

I just don’t know how to say it babe.

I love you so much and I wanna tell you that here and there and everywhere and cry it out loud on top of the world over and over and over again.

I’m just so happy.

And there are so many anniversaries I can barely keep up unlike other couples.

Cuz everyday with u is a new adventure and a new beginning.

Ey paaaartu! Paaaaartu dheke ma varah veyey loabi ingeytha hehe

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

7.30 pm

He looks so damn cute when he’s asleep. I so badly want to hug him but I’m afraid he might wake up to the slightest bit of movement I make. So I’m sitting still. My back is aching now and my ass has been so flat it’s also hurting. But he looks so so damn cute. I can’t wake him up. I really want to give him a kiss on the forehead but he might wake up. Damn babe, why do u have to be so damn adorable?

Love u more after 2 months of symbiosis ;)

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

First:D

I know my blog has quests of my continuous flow of relationships and I know I hate being corny. I find them funny and laugh at my old self sometimes but memories are to be kept. Who knows, maybe in a few years my kids would be reading my idiotic entries and having a good time teasing their mother.

Yes I’m in love. I didn’t ask for it and never wished for it after my bad experiences. People who get bored by corny entries, I suggest you close this page now since the following is all about my wonderful boyfriend.

It’s not the love I experienced in school, high school or even with the infatuations which I thought was love. I love him in a way I feel my heart quiver everytime I see him, when I see him I feel like an ice cube melting in the hot sun, I shiver when I feel him linger on my body, his eyes is like an x-ray machine exposing every inch of my body and that killer smile makes my gloomy heart flutter like a butterfly. If I was asked the question ‘what was the happiest day in your life’ right now, I really am going to have a hard time answering it.

He loves me like no one ever has. He consoles me when I’m even a bit worried, he takes care of me when I’m ill, he walks with me and never let me be alone. I just need to see that smile everyday which says that everything’s going to be okay. I need to be in his arms every minute just to feel safe. For the first time in my life I think I understand the corniest songs that ever existed. I know I’m someone who used to say I hate being in love but man this feels good.

I love the way he talks to me, the way he says he misses me every time I take the laptop. I love the way he looks at me and says “kameh nuvey” when I ask him why he is watching me, and the way he calls me “bebby”. I love when he talks to me about the future and the plans and I can’t even believe how much we have in common. I’m so scared to lose him but this time I know I won’t. And this time I know I can trust him which I haven’t ever been able to do in the past.

I know people might think it’s so soon and how is that possible or say things like aren’t you going too fast? But I know what I want, and that’s him. A life with him. And I’m sure we are going to make it. Cause I’ve never been this comfortable and in love in a relationship ever before. I love him more and more each and every day.

I miss him already. I need my babe, a fix just so I can keep on writing this...



Babe,

I really love you ...:)
and I loved our date today... :)
can’t wait for more...:)

PS. You look so hot while you’re working like that you know. Yeah, I just wanted to see that killer smile of yours. Mwah ;)

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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

zephyr

I don’t know where the wind is taking me but I love its breeze. I love the way how the gush of air makes my whole body shiver, and makes me shudder. The way it gives me goose bumps all over my body, how it silently whispers in my ears, and how easily my heart aches every time I don’t feel the soft breeze on my skin. I could stay the whole day bathed in the zephyr with my eyes closed floating in a world of bliss.....not worrying where it takes me.

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Monday, October 5, 2009

let the bad news's not follow on wednesday

The first time I can be whoever I want to be, do whatever i want to do and go wherever i want to go, the plan flopped. All because it’s a Tuesday night! I guess being fucked up on the 20th won’t be so bad at all...atleast it’s not new for me. What’s new would be having a awesome time. I could sleep. And do the ordinary stuff I always do. And look at the bright side, I won’t have a breakup this time =D

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Flutterby


She was free as a butterfly let out of its cocoon landing on delicious meals. She fed for her own satisfaction and loved enjoying her sovereignty. She wiped out flowers she disliked and kept a group that flourished in her company. She takes pleasure in her free will and lived in the moment. But she lacks something. She promised herself that she will make it and she made it this far. But it’s hard for her, ever since he kept appearing in her fantasy world disrupting the land of her mind's eye to a heavy storm of thunder and rain. She wanted him but her imaginary world couldn’t even reside the beast he was. He could be the charming prince within, but as long as the spell was casted, there’s no warning for the beast to arrive or deadlines for the vanquishing. Changes do take place but are they real? She’s been living in her own delusion of forged luxuriousness too long now she doesn’t ever want to go back into the world of fate and reality.


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Sunday, September 27, 2009

tagged - 20 random facts about me.

I just now remembered, once upon a time not too long ago I was also tagged by arykko in a post which basically asks me to list 20 random facts about me. I think I did sorta the same thing sometime ago but let me do this again (shh im bored n i got nothing to do now thats why I'm writing :P and no! dont remind me of the assignments!!!)

1. I used to sleep in a single bed and still have half of the bed (space for my laptop) and it has been like my pillow. But now since I own a queen sized bed i find the bed kinda small. weird. i know.
2. If i ever saw rihaakuru and thelli banbukeo i'd go crazy
3. I have currently watched over 40 television series.
4. I have an obsession for rings and wrist bands.
5. I have a really hard time chosing between cheesecake and american brownies.
6. I am scared of all animals.
7. I hate texting as most of you would know. But i would love to if i had a QWERTY keyboard on my phone.
8. I secretly want to own apartments/ houses from france,australia,dubai,etc :P
9. I love J.K. Rowling, Dan Brown, Sidney Sheldon and Paulo Coelho's books. Currently searching for Anne Rices vampire chronicles.
10. That reminds me, I secretly have a thing for vampires. I dunno why but I like to think for myself my teeth are shaped like a vampires (it is actualy :P)
11. I could pass off as an Indian infront of an Indians by looks :P
12. I am too honest I sometimes piss people off very easily.
13. I hate walking if its sunny.
14. Having a really hard time figuring out 20 random facts which seems kinda limited wish it was an essay I could've written that very nicely.
15. Am a night person and I wish one day, the world would change its rules and make the morning time for sleeping and night time for studies and working :p
16. Wants to have a tattoo sooo much but I cant.
17. Have 4 piercings and wants some more on some uh places :P
18. Have a very short temper but a very forgiving heart, too forgiving i must say.
19. Still doesn't know good stuff to write in this random 20 facts so wasted 2 facts for my own jabbering.
20. Needed to waste the last fact too :p but lemme say I just cant get enuf of thai food n thom yum thale soup :P

its a few but its about me even though i cheated. and do i really have to tag someone? how about i be a lil selfish and not tag someone. cmon! i went long lengths to write this i dont want another person to suffer this! :P

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shopping list :P

a small fen badi, the domino shaped lighter in timesquare, key chain, black packing (strechable) or athuga alha ehchis not jewellery, black n white nail polish, pictionary, black & white spray paint bottle, grey,black,white,dark red kula dhalhu :P, be delicious green perfume bottle, ringz ringz, anything that fits me from forever 21 :P, that faivaan in pavillion :P, my lenssss, fishies in a big bowl, stuff from ikia, a rapidshare account keke, vampire chronicles by anne rice, etc.

anyways these are things i have to buy but i'm just gonna wait for a few days like last year
this seemed to have worked for some ppl like i said before...
lets see how it goes for me this time :P
haha

anyways cant list the VERY expensive stuff here... even though there are a lot i need to buy and i wish i had money to do just that :( sucks to broke on ur bday away from parents doesnt it ?

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